POEMS BY A LITTLE GIRL
By Hilda Conkling
With A Preface By Amy Lowell
FOR YOU, MOTHER
Like a soft thick fringe to hide your eyes.
I have a surprise for you, Mother,
Shaped like a strange butterfly.
I have found a way of thinking
To make you happy;
I have made a song and a poem
All twisted into one.
If I sing, you listen;
If I think, you know.
I have a secret from everybody in the world full of people
But I cannot always remember how it goes;
It is a song
For you, Mother,
With a curl of cloud and a feather of blue
And a mist
Blowing along the sky.
If I sing it some day, under my voice,
Will it make you happy?
Thanks are due to the editors of Poetry: A Magazine of Verse, The Delineator, Good Housekeeping, The Lyric, St. Nicholas, and Contemporary Verse for their courteous permission to reprint many of the following poems.
PREFACE
A book which needs to be written is one dealing with the childhood of authors. It would be not only interesting, but instructive; not merely profitable in a general way, but practical in a particular. We might hope, in reading it, to gain some sort of knowledge as to what environments and conditions are most conducive to the growth of the creative faculty. We might even learn how not to strangle this rare faculty in its early years.
At this moment I am faced with a difficult task, for here is an author and her childhood in a most unusual position; these two conditions—that of being an author, and that of being a child—appear simultaneously, instead of in the due order to which we are accustomed. For I wish at the outset to state, and emphatically, that it is poetry, the stuff and essence of poetry, which this book contains. I know of no other instance in which such really beautiful poetry has been written by a child; but, confronted with so unwonted a state of things, two questions obtrude themselves: how far has the condition of childhood been impaired by, not only the possession, but the expression, of the gift of writing; how far has the condition of authorship (at least in its more mature state still to come) been hampered by this early leap into the light?
The first question concerns the little girl and can best be answered by herself some twenty years hence; the second concerns the world, and again the answer must wait. We can, however, do something—we can see what she is and what she has done. And if the one is interesting to the psychologist, the other is no less important to the poet.
Hilda Conkling is the younger daughter of Mrs. Grace Hazard Conkling, Assistant Professor of English at Smith College, Northampton, Massachusetts. At the time of writing, Hilda has just passed her ninth birthday. Her sister, Elsa, is two years her senior. The children and their mother live all the year round in Northampton, and glimpses of the woods and hills surrounding the little town crop up again and again in these poems. This is Emily Dickinson's country, and there is a reminiscent sameness in the fauna and flora of her poems in these.
The two little girls go to a school a few blocks from where they live. In the afternoons, they take long walks with their mother, or play in the garden while she writes. On rainy days, there are books and Mrs. Conkling's piano, which is not just a piano, for Mrs. Conkling is a musician, and we may imagine that the children hear a special music as they certainly read a special literature. By "special" I do not mean a prescribed course (for dietitians of the mind are quite as apt to be faddists as dietitians of the stomach), but just that sort of reading which a person who passionately loves books would most want to introduce her children to. And here I think we have the answer to the why of Hilda. She and her sister have been their mother's close companions ever since they were born. They have never known that somewhat equivocal relationship—a child with its nurse. They have never been for hours at a time in contact with an elementary intelligence. If Hilda had shown these poems to even the most sympathetic nurse, what would have been the result? In the first place, they would, in all probability, have been lost, since Hilda does not write her poems, but tells them; in the second, they would have been either extravagantly praised or laughingly commented upon. In either case, the fine flower of creation would most certainly have been injured.
Then again, blessed though many of the nurses of childhood undoubtedly are (and we all remember them), they have no means of answering the thousand and one questions of an eager, opening mind. To be an adequate companion to childhood, one must know so many things. Hilda is fortunate in her mother, for if these poems reveal one thing more than another it is that Mrs. Conkling is dowered with an admirable tact. In the dedication poem to her mother, the little girl says:
If I think, you know."
No finer tribute could be offered by one person to another than the contented certainty of understanding in those two lines.
Hilda tells her poems, and the method of it is this: They come out in the course of conversation, and Mrs. Conkling is so often engaged in writing that there is nothing to be remarked if she scribbles absently while talking to the little girls. But this scribbling is really a complete draught of the poem. Occasionally Mrs. Conkling writes down the poem later from memory and reads it afterwards to the child, who always remembers if it is not exactly in its original form. No line, no cadence, is altered from Hilda's version; the titles have been added for convenience, but they are merely obvious handles derived from the text.
Naturally it is only a small proportion of Hilda's life which is given to poetry. Much is devoted to running about, a part to study, etc. It is, however, significant that Hilda is not very keen about games with other children. Not that she is by any means either shy or solitary, but they do not greatly interest her. Doubtless childhood pays its debt of possession more steadily than we know.
Now to turn to the book itself; at the very start, here is an amazing thing. This slim volume contains one hundred and seven separate poems, and that is counting as one all the very short pieces written between the ages of five and six. Certainly that is a remarkable output for a little girl, and the only possible explanation is that the poems are perfectly instinctive. There is no working over as with an adult poet. Hilda is subconscious, not self-conscious. Her mother says that she rarely hesitates for a word. When the feeling is strong, it speaks for itself. Read the dedication poem, "For You, Mother." It is full of feeling, and of that simple, dignified, adequate diction which is the speech of feeling:
To make you happy."
That is beautiful, and, once read, inevitable; but it waited for a child to say. Poem after poem is charged with this feeling, this expression of great love:
Sweets-of-my-heart,
With love in it,
(How I love you!)"
"Will you love me to-morrow after
As if I had a bird's way of singing?"
But it is not only the pulse of feeling in such passages which makes them surprising; it is the perfectly original expression of it. When one reads a thing and voluntarily exclaims: "How beautiful! How natural! How true!" then one knows that one has stumbled upon that flash of personality which we call genius. These poems are full of such flashes:
Leaning in the grass!"
. . .
"There is a star that runs very fast,
That goes pulling the moon
Through the tops of the poplars."
. . .
"There is sweetness in the tree,
And fireflies are counting the leaves.
I like this country,
I like the way it has."
A pansy has a "thinking face"; a rooster has a comb "gay as a parade," he shouts "crooked words, loud . . . sharp . . . not beautiful!"; frozen water is asked if it cannot "lift" itself "with sun," and "Easter morning says a glad thing over and over."
No matter who wrote them, those passages would be beautiful, the oldest poet in the world could not improve upon them; and yet the reader has only to turn to the text to see the incredibly early age at which such expressions came into the author's mind.
Where childhood betrays genius is in the mounting up of detail. Inadequate lines not infrequently jar a total effect, as when, in the poem of the star pulling the moon, she suddenly ends, "Mr. Moon, does he make you hurry?" Or, speaking of a drop of water:
For several years
Until at last it was never heard of
Any more."
This is the perennial child, thinking as children think; and we are glad of it. It makes the whole more healthy, more sure of development. When the subconscious mind of Hilda Conkling takes a vacation, she does not "nod," as erstwhile Homer; she merely reverts to type and is a child again.
I think too highly of these poems to speak of the volume as though it were the finished achievement of a grown-up person. Some of the poems can be taken in that way, but by no means all. The child who writes them frequently transcends herself, but her thoughts for the most part are those proper to every imaginative child. Fairies play a large role in her fancies, and so does the sandman. There are kings, and princesses, and golden wings, and there are reminiscences of story-books, and hints of pictures that have pleased her. After all, that is the way we all make our poems, but the grown-up poet tries to get away from his author, he tries to see more than the painter has seen. The little girl is quite untroubled by any questions of technique. She takes what to her is the obvious always, and in these copied pieces it is, naturally, less her own peculiar obvious than in the nature poems.
Hilda Conkling is evidently possessed of a rare and accurate power of observation. And when we add this to her gift of imagination, we see that it is the perfectly natural play of these two faculties which makes what to her is an obvious expression. She does not search for it, it is her natural mode of thought. But, luckily for her, she has been guided by a wisdom which has not attempted to show her a better way. Her observation has been carefully, but unobtrusively, cultivated; her imagination has been stimulated by the reading of excellent books; but both these lines of instruction have been kept apparently apart from her own work. She has been let alone there; she has been taught by an analogy which she has never suspected. By this means, her poetical gift has functioned happily, without ever for a moment experiencing the tension of doubt.
A few passages will serve to show how well Hilda knows how to use her eyes:
Like a spider's web."
A bluebird has a back "like a feathered sky." Apostrophizing a snow-capped mountain she writes:
But with a different whiteness."
She asks a humming-bird:
And no sun shining?"
She hears a chickadee:
The way smooth bright pebbles
Drop into water."
Now let us follow her a step farther, to where the imagination takes a firmer hold:
Not to spill its lakes and rivers.
The water is held in its arms
And the sky is held in the water."
School lessons, and a reflection in a pond—that is the stuff of which all poetry is made. It is the fusion which shows the quality of the poet. Turn to the text and read "Geography." Really, this is an extraordinary child!
It is pleasant to watch her with the artist's eagerness intrigued by the sounds of words, for instance:
Again, enchanted by a little bell of rhyme, we have this amusing catalogue:
Mary-flowers,
Polly-flowers
Cauli-flowers."
That is the conscious Hilda, the gay little girl, but it shows a quick ear nevertheless. We can almost hear the giggle with which that "Cauliflowers" came out. Usually rhyme does not appear to be a matter of moment to her. Some poets think in rhyme, some do not; Hilda evidently belongs to the second category. "Treasure," and "The Apple-Jelly-Fish-Tree," and "Short Story" are the only poems in the book which seem to follow a clearly rhymed pattern. If any misguided schoolmistress had ever suggested that a poem should have rhyme and metre, this book would never have been "told." In "Moon Doves," however, there is a distinctly metrical effect without rhyme. But the great majority of the poems are built upon cadence, and the subtlety of this little girl's cadences are a delight to those who can hear them. Doubtless her musical inheritance has all to do with this, for in poem after poem the instinct for rhythm is unerring. So constantly is this the case, that it is scarcely necessary to point out particular examples. I may, however, name, as two of her best for other qualities as well, "Gift," and "Poems." The latter contains two of her quick strokes of observation and comparison: the morning "like the inside of a snow-apple," and she herself curled "cushion-shaped" in the window-seat.
Dear me! How simple these poems seem when you read them done. But try to write something new about a dandelion. Try it; and then read the poem of that name here. It is charming; how did she think of it? How indeed!
Delightful conceits she has—another is "Sun Flowers"—but how comes a child of eight to prick and point with the rapier of irony? For it is nothing less than irony in "The Tower and the Falcon." Did she quite grasp its meaning herself? We may doubt it. In this poem, the subconscious is very much on the job.
To my thinking, the most successful poems in the book—and now I mean successful from a grown-up standpoint—are "For You, Mother," "Red Rooster," "Gift," "Poems," "Dandelion," "Butterfly," "Weather," "Hills," and "Geography." And it will be noticed that these are precisely the poems which must have sprung from actual experience. They are not the book poems, not even the fairy poems, they are the records of reactions
"Gift" is a lovely poem, it has feeling, expression, originality, cadence. If a child can write such a poem at eight years old, what does it mean? That depends, I think, on how long the instructors of youth can be persuaded to keep "hands off." A period of imitation is, I fear, inevitable, but if consciousness is not induced by direct criticism, if instruction in the art of writing is abjured, the imitative period will probably be got through without undue loss. I think there is too much native sense of beauty and proportion here to be entirely killed even by the drying and freezing process which goes by the name of education.
What this book chiefly shows is high promise; but it also has its pages of real achievement, and that of so high an order it may well set us pondering. AMY LOWELL.
CONTENTS
FOR YOU, MOTHER
PREFACE
FOUR TO FIVE YEAR OLDS
FIRST SONGS
FIVE TO SIX YEARS OLD
THEATRE-SONG
VELVETS
TWO SONGS
MOON SONG
SUNSET
MOUSE
SHORT STORY
BY LAKE CHAMPLAIN
SPRING SONG
WATER
SHADY BRONN
CHICKADEE
THE CHAMPLAIN SANDMAN
ROSE-MOSS
ABOUT MY DREAMS
ABOUT MY DREAMS
SIX TO SEVEN YEARS OLD
AUTUMN SONG
THE DREAM
BUTTERFLY
EVENING
THUNDER SHOWER
RED CROSS SONG
PURPLE ASTERS
SONG FOR A PLAY
PEACOCK FEATHERS
RED ROOSTER
TREE-TOAD
SEVEN TO NINE YEARS OLD
THE LONESOME WAVE
RAMBLER ROSE
GIFT
THE WHITE CLOUD
MOON THOUGHT
THE OLD BRIDGE
FERNS
LAND OF NOD
SUN FLOWERS
HOLLAND SONG
FOUNTAIN-TALK
POPLARS
THE TOWER AND THE FALCON
THOUGHTS
POEM-SKETCH IN THREE PARTS
THE ROLLING IN OF THE WAVE
THE COMING OF THE GREAT BIRD
THE ISLAND
THE DEW-LIGHT
YELLOW SUMMER-THROAT
PEGASUS
VENICE BRIDGE
NIGHT GOES RUSHING BY
DANDELION
IF I COULD TELL YOU THE WAY
ROSE-PETAL
POEMS
SEAGARDE
EASTER
BLUEBIRD
GEOGRAPHY
MARCH THOUGHT
MORNING
SONG
SNOWFLAKE SONG
SNOWSTORM
POPPY
BUTTERFLY
CLOUDS
NARCISSUS
LITTLE SNAIL
CHERRIES ARE RIPE
LITTLE PAPOOSE:
FAIRIES AGAIN
OH, MY HAZEL-EYED MOTHER
TREASURE
TWO PICTURES
TELL ME
SILVERHORN
SPARKLING DROP OF WATER
HAY-COCK
ONLY MORNING-GLORY THAT FLOWERED
WEATHER
SUMMER-DAY SONG
PINK ROSE-PETALS
THE LONESOME GREEN APPLE
MUSHROOM SONG
THE APPLE-JELLY-FISH-TREE
THREE LOVES
THE FIELD OF WONDER
MOON DOVES
THREE THOUGHTS OF MY HEART
SNOW-CAPPED MOUNTAIN
THE BROOK AND ITS CHILDREN
BIRD OF PARADISE
SHINY BROOK
HILLS
ADVENTURE
FAIRIES
HUMMING-BIRD
BLUE GRASS
ENVOY
FOUR TO FIVE YEARS OLD
FIRST SONGS
Rosy plum-tree, think of me
When Spring comes down the world!
II
There's dozens full of dandelions
Down in the field:
Little gold plates,
Little gold dishes in the grass.
I cannot count them,
But the fairies know every one.
III
Oh wrinkling star, wrinkling up so wise,
When you go to sleep do you shut your eyes?
IV
The red moon comes out in the night.
When I'm asleep, the moon comes pattering up
Into the trees.
Then I peep out my window
To watch the moon go by.
V
Sparkle up, little tired flower
Leaning in the grass!
Did you find the rain of night
Too heavy to hold?
VI
The garden is full of flowers
All dancing round and round.
John-flowers,
Mary-flowers,
Polly-flowers,
Cauli-flowers,
They dance round and round
And they bow down and down
To a black-eyed daisy.
VII
There is going to be the sound of bells
And murmuring.
This is the brook dance:
There is going to be sound of voices,
And the smallest will be the brook:
It is the song of water
You will hear,
A little winding song
To dance to . . .
VIII
Blossoms in the growing tree,
Why don't you speak to me?
I want to grow like you,
Smiling . . . smiling . . .
IX
If I find a moon,
I will sing a moon-song.
If I find a flower,
What song shall I sing,
Rose-song or clover-song?
X
The blossoms will be gone in the winter:
Oh apples, come for the June!
Can you come, will you bloom?
Will you stay till the cold?
XI
I will sing you a song,
Sweets-of-my-heart,
With love in it,
(How I love you!)
And a rose to swing in the wind,
The wind that swings roses!
XII
Will you love me to-morrow after next,
As if I had a bird's way of singing?
FIVE TO SIX YEARS OLD
The butterfly swings over the violet
That stands by the water,
In the garden that sings
All day.
The sun goes up in the dawn,
The water waves softly.
In the trees are little breezes,
In the garden trees.
Blue hills and blue waters I
The big blue ocean lies around in the sun
Watching his waves toss . . .
THEATRE-SONG
And mermaids danced in the gold waters.
Eagles were calling over the sky
And the water was the color of blue flowers.
Sunshine was 'flected in the waves
Like meadows of white buds.
This is what I saw
On a morning long ago . . .
VELVETS
This pansy has a thinking face
Like the yellow moon.
This one has a face with white blots:
I call him the clown.
Here goes one down the grass
With a pretty look of plumpness;
She is a little girl going to school
With her hands in the pockets of her pinafore.
Her name is Sue.
I like this one, in a bonnet,
Waiting,
Her eyes are so deep!
But these on the other side,
These that wear purple and blue,
They are the Velvets,
The king with his cloak,
The queen with her gown,
The prince with his feather.
These are dark and quiet
And stay alone.
I know you, Velvets,
Color of Dark,
Like the pine-tree on the hill
When stars shine!