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Take Me for a Ride: Coming of Age in a Destructive Cult

Take Me for a Ride: Coming of Age in a Destructive Cult

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Coming Of Age In A Destructive Cult
by Mark E. Laxer
Copyright 1993 by Mark E. Laxer
[email protected]

Take Me For A Ride

* * *

     One flew east,
     One flew west,
     One flew over the cuckoo's nest.

                   —Childhood nursery rhyme
                     quoted in One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest
                     by Ken Kesey

     Fly me over the cuckoo's nest,
     To your *golden* side,
     I don't care if you're the cuckoo—
     Take me for a ride...



Coming Of Age In A Destructive Cult


Mark E. Laxer

1993 Outer Rim Press Copyright 1993 by Mark E. Laxer

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Outer Rim Press
4431 Lehigh Road, #221
College Park, MD 20740
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Grateful acknowledgment is made to Simon & Schuster, Inc., for permission to reprint an excerpt from Gandhi: A Memoir by William Shirer. Copyright (c) 1979 by William Shirer.

Library of Congress Catalog Card Number: 93-085777
ISBN 0-9638108-3-9

Initially printed and posted in the United States of America

To Patsy Sims—inspired teacher, intriguing storyteller, intrepid journalist.

Author's Note

Names in the following story have been changed, except for those already mentioned in the press.


    1.   Bicycle Ride—Walden    2.   Zapped!    3.   The Joining    4.   The Community    5.   Bicycle Ride—Lenox    6.   The Garden    7.   Money Mantra    8.   Fast Leader    9.   Off The Map  10.   Bicycle Ride—Utica  11.   Displaced  12.   Thwarted Escape  13.   Breakdown  14.   Bicycle Ride—St. Ignes  15.   The Enchanted Taco  16.   Ride To Heaven  17.   On High  18.   Where's My Tribe?  19.   I'm Okay  20.   The Last Supper  21.   Bicycle Ride—The Continental Divide          Epilogue

1. Bicycle Ride—Walden

After I left Rama's inner circle in 1985, I occasionally bicycled to Walden Pond, where I read about Thoreau's experiment with self-reliance. My seven years in the cult of Rama—Dr. Frederick Lenz, who was known early on as Atmananda—had deeply shaken my confidence. Atmananda often assured me that I was possessed by Negative Forces, that I was barely able to function in the real world, and that I was fortunate he did not drop me off at a mental institution. I met him in 1978, when I was seventeen.

Thoreau helped me recall a time, before Atmananda, when I was strong and self-reliant. I had been an avid cyclist. Pedaling thousands of miles each year helped strengthen both my legs and self-esteem. Throughout my teenage years bicycling and self-confidence were inextricably linked, and I grew to believe I could ride anywhere, under any conditions. I tried to approach life with a similar gusto, which may explain why, in 1979, Atmananda invited me to move with him to southern California to start a spiritual centre. From