قراءة كتاب Notwithstanding
تنويه: تعرض هنا نبذة من اول ١٠ صفحات فقط من الكتاب الالكتروني، لقراءة الكتاب كاملا اضغط على الزر “اشتر الآن"
anguish of the last two days was lifted from her, as a deft hand lifts a burden. She sighed and leaned her cheek against a pillow which was made of rest; and presently she was wandering in a great peace in a wide meadow beside a little stream whispering among its forget-me-nots. And across the white clover, and the daisies, and the little purple orchids, came the feet of one who loved her. And they walked together beside the stream, the kind, understanding stream, he and she—he and she together. And all was well, all was well.
Many hours later, Mrs. Stoddart and the doctor came and looked at her, and he thrust out his under lip.
"I can't bear to wake her," she said.
"One little half-hour, then," he said, and went back to the next room.
Mrs. Stoddart sat down by the bed, and presently Annette, as if conscious of her presence, opened her eyes.
"I see now," she said slowly, looking at Mrs. Stoddart with the fixed gravity of a child, "I was wrong."
"How wrong, my dear?"
"Rivers are not meant for that, nor the little streams either. They are not meant to drown oneself in. They are meant to run and run, and for us to walk beside, and pick forget-me-nots."
Mrs. Stoddart's scrutinizing eyes filled with sudden tears. What tragedy was this into which she had thrust herself? She drew back the curtain, and let the afternoon light fall on Annette's face. Her eyelids trembled, and into her peaceful, rapt face distress crept slowly back. Mrs. Stoddart felt as if she had committed a crime. But there was another to think of besides Annette.
"You have slept?"
"Yes. I ought not to have gone to sleep while Dick was ill."
"You needed sleep."
"Is—is he better?"
"He is somewhat better."
"I will go to him."
"He does not need you just now."
"Has the doctor found out what is the matter with him?"
"He thinks he has." Mrs. Stoddart spoke very slowly. "As far as I understand, there is a cerebral lesion, and it is possible that it may not be as serious as he thought at first. It may have been aggravated for the moment by drink, the effects of which are passing off. But there is always the risk—in this case a great risk—that the injury to the brain may increase. In any case, his condition is very grave. His family ought to be communicated with at once."
Annette stared at her in silence.
"They must be summoned," said Mrs. Stoddart.
"But I don't know who they are," said Annette. "I don't even know his real name. He is called Mr. Le Geyt. It is the name he rides under."
Mrs. Stoddart reddened. She had had her doubts.
"A wife should know her husband's name," she said.
"But, you see, I'm not his wife."
There was a moment's silence. Mrs. Stoddart's eyes fell on Annette's wedding ring.
"That is nothing," said Annette. "Dick said I had better have one, and he bought it in a shop before we started. I think I'll take it off. I hate wearing it."
"No, no. Keep it on."
There was another silence.
"But you must know his address."
"No. I know he is often in Paris. But I have only met him at—at a cabaret."
"Could you trust me?" said Mrs. Stoddart humbly.
Annette trembled, and her face became convulsed.
"You are very kind," she said, "very kind,—getting the nurse, and helping, and this nice warm rug, and everything,—but I'm afraid I can't trust anyone any more. I've left off trusting people."
CHAPTER IV
It was the second day of Dick's illness. Annette's life had revived somewhat, though the long sleep had not taken the strained look from her eyes. But Mrs. Stoddart's fears for her were momentarily allayed. Tears were what she needed, and tears were evidently a long way off.
And Annette fought for the life of poor Dick as if he were indeed her bridegroom, and Mrs. Stoddart abetted her as if he were her only son. The illness was incalculable, abnormal. There were intervals of lucidity followed by long lapses into unconsciousness. There were hours in which he seemed to know them, but could neither speak nor move. There were times when it appeared as if the faint flame of life had flickered quite out, only to waver feebly up again.
Together the two women had searched every article of Dick's effects, but they could find no clue to his address or identity. Annette remembered that he had had a pocket-book, and seeing him take a note out of it to pay for the tickets. But the pocket-book could not be found, or any money. It was evident that he had been robbed that first evening when he was drinking. Some of his handkerchiefs were marked with four initials, R. L. G. M.
"Richard Le Geyt M. Then he had another name as well," said Mrs. Stoddart. "You can't recall having ever heard it?"
Annette shook her head.
"He is supposed to be an English lord," she said, "and very rich. And he rides his own horses, and makes and loses a great deal of money on the turf. And he is peculiar—very depressed one year, and very wild the next. That is all that people like us who are not his social equals know of him."
"I do not even know what your name is," said Mrs. Stoddart tentatively, as she rearranged Dick's clothes in the drawers, and took up a bottle of lotion which had evidently been intended for his strained neck.
"My name is Annette."
"Well, Annette, I think the best thing you can do is to write to your home and say that you are coming back to it immediately."
"I have no home."
Mrs. Stoddart was silent. Any information which Annette vouchsafed about herself always seemed to entail silence.
"I have made up my mind," Annette went on, "to stay with Dick till he is better. He is the only person I care a little bit about."
"No, Annette, you do not care for him. It is remorse for your neglect of him that makes you nurse him with such devotion."
"I do not love him," said Annette. "But then, how could I? I hardly know him. But he meant to be kind to me. He was the only person who was kind. He tried to save me, though not in the right way. Poor Dick, he does not know much. But I must stay and nurse him till he is better. I can't desert him."
"My dear," said Mrs. Stoddart impatiently, "that is all very well, but you cannot remain here without a scandal. It is different for an old woman like myself. And though we have not yet got into touch with his family, we shall directly. If I can't get a clue otherwise, I shall apply to the police. You must think of your own character."
"I do not care about my character," said Annette in the same tone in which she might have said she did not care for black coffee.
"But I do," said Mrs. Stoddart to herself.
"And I have a little money," Annette continued,—"at least, not much money, only a few louis,—but I have these." And she drew out from her neck a row of pearls. They were not large pearls, but they were even and beautifully matched.
"They were mother's," she said. "They will be enough for the doctor and the nurse and the hotel bill, won't they?"
Mrs. Stoddart put down the bottle of lotion and took the pearls in her hand, and bent over them, trying to hide