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قراءة كتاب Bolanyo
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companion for a man."
"And a dutiful wife to her husband," she said, laughing. "But to be dutiful is not so serious a matter.—not so serious to us as I fancy it is to you stage people."
"Well, no," I admitted; "and also more serious than the views held by thousands of good people who live in the large cities."
She shrugged her shoulders. "Nature doesn't grant divorces," she said. "Birds are not divorced."
"But they change mates every year," I replied.
"Oh, do they? The shameless creatures."
We laughed, looking straight into each other's eyes. I thought that she would make a splendid figure on the stage, and I told her so, expecting to hear her cry out against it, but she did not. She was pleased. "I have had that sort of longing," she said, "but I never expressed it, knowing that it would meet with a storm of disapproval. It wouldn't do," she continued, shaking her head. "I know that I could never reach the top, and a lower place—"
"Would make your proud heart sore," I cried, with bitterness.
She gave me a quick look of compassion, but said nothing; she let me continue: "I have had the cold clamps put on my impetuous soul, and, trying to conquer the evil opinion of the critic, I have worked and studied under the stimulus of despair. But I have given up the fight; I am going to quit the stage."
I leaned toward her, hoping for a protest, but she quietly said, "I don't blame you," and I settled myself back with a sigh. She had seen me act.
"What line of work do you intend to take up?" she inquired.
"I am going to write plays."
"And will you be satisfied if you don't write the best?"
"I hadn't thought of that. Yes, in that line I think that I shall be satisfied with merely a success."
And then with a wisdom that made me stare at her, she said: "We can find contentment in the middle ground of a second choice, for then the heart has had its day of suffering."
"What do you read to your father?" I asked.
"Dull books in leather," she answered. "And I have sometimes feared that this schooling has unfitted me for the light and pleasing society of my friends. They called me an old maid before I was twenty. Oh, I've got something to show you," she cried, jumping up and running out of the room; and soon she returned with a little chicken held against her cheek. "A hawk carried its mother away, and all of its brothers and sisters were drowned in the rain. Listen to the little thing. Isn't it sweet? I had a pet duck once and I loved it until it got big enough to go out and get its feet muddy and then—I granted it a divorce. And after a while this little thing will grow up and leave me, won't you, pet? No, you won't, will you? There, I knew you wouldn't. You'll always be little and lovable, and will stay with me. Come on, now, and let's go back to the kitchen." She tripped out a girl, singing as she went, but she came back a woman; and of the ways, the air and the ambitions of the town I gathered more from a few moments of her talk than her father could have given me in an hour's oration. He knew the men, but she knew the whims; and while men may build the houses and make the laws, it is the whim that makes the atmosphere. And for this reason an old town is always more interesting than a new one. The subtle influence of odd characters long since gone continues to live in the air. The Spaniards had settled on the site of Bolanyo, and though naught but the faint tracings of a fortified camp were left to mark the manner of their occupation, still the town felt the honor of almost an ancient origin.
We talked until nearly noontime; until there came a light tap at the open door. I looked up and there stood the black giant.
"Pardon me," he said, "but I am afraid you have been up long enough."
"Hannibal, your unbending discipline—" I began, but with lifting his mighty hand he shut me off.
"I am a soldier of the Lord and Hannibal was a soldier of the devil," he said. "Please don't compare us."
Mrs. Estell jumped up, laughing. "You'll have to do as he tells you, Mr. Belford."
I had no time to argue against his authority, for already he had advanced and put his hands on the back of my chair. She walked beside me down the hall, and as the giant was easing the chair across the threshold of my room she said:
"I hope you'll soon get well, and when you do, we'll go fox-hunting, you and papa and I. Won't that be fun?"
"I don't know," I answered, from the inside of the room. "Oh, yes, it will be fun for you and your father."
The negro took hold of the door as if impatient to shut it, and I looked at him hard enough, I thought, to have bored him through, but, giving me simply the heed of his slow wink, he continued to stand there.
"Of course, you can ride a horse," she said; and quickly she added: "Gracious alive, Washington, don't look at me that way. Good-bye, Mr. Belford."
The negro closed the door. "Damn it, man, what do you mean?" I cried. "Confound you, can't you see—"
"Sir," he said, standing over me with his arms folded, "do you know what you are saying?"
"Yes, I do, and I want to tell you right now, and once for all, that I appreciate your kindness, but will not submit to your insolence. Do you understand?"
"I hear you, Sir."
"But do you understand; that's the question?"
"I understand, but you don't," he said. "Now, listen to me. There is the noblest young woman in the world; when she was a child I was her horse, the black beast who delighted to do her bidding. I know her—I know she is hungry for someone to talk to. Now, do you understand?"
I did, but I said "No." I knew that she was hungry; but if I could give her food, why should this monster dash it to the ground?
"If you don't, the theatre is a more innocent place than I think it is," he replied.
I looked up at him and he winked at me slowly. "But you say she is noble," I said.
"She is, Sir, and strong; but a marriage tie cannot hold an unwilling mind. Don't misunderstand me, Sir. The greatest harm you could do would be to make her still more dissatisfied. With the presumption of an old servant, I may say something that sounds impertinent, but I am a preacher and a moralist. Thomas Rodney Estell is regarded here as a great man; he has been State Treasurer nearly ten years, and he and the Senator are warm friends."
"Well?" I said.
He looked up at the ceiling and replied: "A girl may marry her father's friend, but it is not often that she loves him."
"Washington, are you in league with the devil?"
This struck through the superficial coating of his education, into his real negro nature and made him roar with laughter. "No, Sah, I'm er feard o' him;" but feeling the disgrace of his dialect he sobered and said: "I think you understand me now, Mr. Belford."
"Yes, I do, and I don't blame you. But before we go further let me tell you this: I have been on the stage, which is quite enough to fix my character in the opinion of many a good but narrow-minded person, but I am from a long line of Puritan stock, and in my blood there is a strong sense of moral responsibility. I have never made an intentional show of those puritanic influences; I have striven rather to hide them from the contempt of my lighter-hearted companions; but a sagacious old stage-strutter once held up my overreligious ancestors as the cause of my failure to catch the subtle art of a high grade of work. He declared that all great English-speaking actors could trace their blood back to the cart's tail."
"I don't understand, Mr. Belford—the reference to the cart's tail."
"To ease their consciences and to serve the Lord with becoming activity, it was the custom of the Puritans, in the olden day, to condemn actors and tie them to the tail of a cart, and whip them through the street."
"I have never read about it, Mr. Belford."
"I suppose not. Church history doesn't dwell upon it."
He turned toward the door, faced about and


