‘Do you love me.  Dear?’
And I reply, ‘Sweetest, I vow
I never loved but half till now.’
She turns her face to the wall at this,
And says, ‘Go, Love, ’tis too much bliss.’
And then a sudden pulse is sent
About the sounding firmament
In smitings as of silver bars;
The bright disorder of the stars
Is solved by music; far and near,
Through infinite distinctions clear,
Their twofold voices’ deeper tone
Utters the Name which all things own,
And each ecstatic treble dwells
On one whereof none other tells;
And we, sublimed to song and fire,
Take order in the wheeling quire,
Till from the throbbing sphere I start,
Waked by the heaving of my heart.
   Such dreams as these come night by night,
Disturbing day with their delight.
Portend they nothing?  Who can tell!’
God yet may do some miracle.
’Tis nigh two years, and she’s not wed,
Or you would know!  He may be dead,
Or mad, and loving some one else,
And she, much moved that nothing quells
My constancy, or, simply wroth
With such a wretch, accept my troth
To spite him; or her beauty’s gone,
(And that’s my dream!) and this man Vaughan
Takes her release: or tongues malign,
Confusing every ear but mine,
Have smirch’d her: ah, ’twould move her, sure,
To find I loved her all the more!
Nay, now I think, haply amiss
I read her words and looks, and his,
That night!  Did not his jealousy
Show—Good my God, and can it be
That I, a modest fool, all blest,
Nothing of such a heaven guess’d?
Oh, chance too frail, yet frantic sweet,
To-morrow sees me at her feet!
   Yonder, at last, the glad sea roars
Along the sacred English shores!
There lies the lovely land I know,
Where men and women lordliest grow;
There peep the roofs where more than kings
Postpone state cares to country things,
And many a gay queen simply tends
The babes on whom the world depends;
There curls the wanton cottage smoke
Of him that drives but bears no yoke;
There laughs the realm where low and high
Are lieges to society,
And life has all too wide a scope,
Too free a prospect for its hope,
For any private good or ill,
Except dishonour, quite to fill! [1]
   —Mother, since this was penn’d, I’ve read
That ‘Mr. Vaughan, on Tuesday, wed
The beautiful Miss Churchill.’  So
That’s over; and to-morrow I go
To take up my new post on board
The Wolf, my peace at last restored;
My lonely faith, like heart-of-oak,
Shock-season’d.  Grief is now the cloak
I clasp about me to prevent
The deadly chill of a content
With any near or distant good,
Except the exact beatitude
Which love has shown to my desire.
Talk not of ‘other joys and higher,’
I hate and disavow all bliss
As none for me which is not this.
Think not I blasphemously cope
With God’s decrees, and cast off hope.
How, when, and where can mine succeed?

I’ll trust He knows who made my need.
   Baseness of men!  Pursuit being o’er,
Doubtless her Husband feels no more
The heaven of heavens of such a Bride,
But, lounging, lets her please his pride
With fondness, guerdons her caress
With little names, and turns a tress
Round idle fingers.  If ’tis so,
Why then I’m happier of the two!
Better, for lofty loss, high pain,
Than low content with lofty gain.
Poor, foolish Dove, to trust from me
Her happiness and dignity!

X.  FROM FREDERICK.

I thought the worst had brought me balm:
’Twas but the tempest’s central calm.
Vague sinkings of the heart aver
That dreadful wrong is come to her,
And o’er this dream I brood and dote,
And learn its agonies by rote.
As if I loved it, early and late
I make familiar with my fate,
And feed, with fascinated will,
On very dregs of finish’d ill.
I think, she’s near him now, alone,
With wardship and protection none;
Alone, perhaps, in the hindering stress
Of airs that clasp him with her dress,
They wander whispering by the wave;
And haply now, in some sea-cave,
Where the ribb’d sand is rarely trod,
They laugh, they kiss, Oh, God! oh, God!
There comes a smile acutely sweet
Out of the picturing dark; I meet
The ancient frankness of her gaze,
That soft and heart-surprising blaze
Of great goodwill and innocence.
And perfect joy proceeding thence!
Ah! made for earth’s delight, yet such
The mid-sea air’s too gross to touch.
At thought of which, the soul in me
Is as the bird that bites a bee,
And darts abroad on frantic wing,
Tasting the honey and the sting;
And, moaning where all round me sleep
Amidst the moaning of the deep,
I start at midnight from my bed—
And have no right to strike him dead.
   What world is this that I am in,
Where chance turns sanctity to sin!
’Tis crime henceforward to desire
The only good; the sacred fire
That sunn’d the universe is hell!
I hear a Voice which argues well:
‘The Heaven hard has scorn’d your cry;
Fall down and worship me, and I
Will give you peace; go and profane
This pangful love, so pure, so vain.
And thereby win forgetfulness
And pardon of the spirit’s excess,
Which soar’d too nigh that jealous Heaven
Ever, save thus, to be forgiven.
No Gospel has come down that cures
With better gain a loss like yours.
Be pious!  Give the beggar pelf,
And love your neighbour as yourself!
You, who yet love, though all is o’er,
And she’ll ne’er be your neighbour more,
With soul which can in pity smile
That aught with such a measure vile
As self should be at all named “love!”
Your sanctity the priests reprove;
Your case of grief they wholly miss;
The Man of Sorrows names not this.
The years, they say, graft love divine
On the lopp’d stock of love like thine;
The wild tree dies not, but converts.
So be it; but the lopping hurts,
The graft takes tardily!  Men stanch
Meantime with earth the bleeding branch.
There’s nothing heals one woman’s loss,
And lightens life’s eternal cross
With intermission of sound rest,
Like lying in another’s breast.
The cure is, to your thinking, low!
Is not life all, henceforward, so?’
   Ill Voice, at least thou calm’st my mood:
I’ll sleep!  But, as I thus conclude,
The intrusions of her grace dispel
The comfortable glooms of hell.
   A wonder!  Ere these lines were dried,
Vaughan and my Love, his three-days’ Bride,
Became my guests.  I look’d, and, lo,
In beauty soft as is the snow
And powerful as the avalanche,
She lit the deck.  The Heav’n-sent chance!
She smiled, surprised.  They came to see
The ship, not thinking to meet me.
   At infinite distance she’s my day:
What then to him?  Howbeit they say
’Tis not so sunny in the sun
But men might live cool lives thereon!
   All’s well; for I have seen arise
That reflex sweetness of her eyes
In his, and watch’d his breath defer
Humbly its bated life to her,
His wife.  My Love, she’s safe in his
Devotion!  What ask’d I but this?
   They bade adieu; I saw them go
Across the sea; and now I know
The ultimate hope I rested on,
The hope beyond the grave, is gone,
The hope that, in the heavens high,
At last it should appear that I
Loved most, and so, by claim divine,
Should